An object at rest stays at rest and an object in motion stays in motion with the same speed and in the same direction unless acted upon by an unbalanced force.
So, this morning I had an "ah-ha" moment. One of those "ah-ha" moments that you are sure that every other parent knows, but you finally found out how to put it in words.
It was 9:00 and I had already: done two loads of laundry, vacuumed, fed the baby, played with the baby, entertained the baby, put the baby down for a nap, unloaded and loaded the dishwasher, wiped down the table and counters, spot cleaned the carpet, exercised for an hour and was starting to take a shower when I stopped and thought, "holy crap this is an unusually productive day."
The background on this is that the last little bit I have been struggling with finding a purpose. Now I hate even putting that into words because I love being a mother. I love playing with my baby girl and teaching her and seeing her progress. But I cannot live my life revolving around my kids. I mean I could, but I don't want to lose myself in that endeavor. I personally enjoy parenting so much more when I have a good break from it to be able to better myself. So I have been struggling with days that I just can't seem to get the umph to get anything done. I mean, why clean the house, I am in the army, not near family so no one is going to see it. (I'll tell you why, I become a monster - I mean totally frustrated and on edge when my house isn't clean) Why organize because we are moving in a month anyways what's the point. I really was just in a funk. I would try to be productive in the morning but I would wake up at the same time as Kaela and I would watch her play, feed her breakfast and wait to get anything done until she was down for her morning nap. But then when her nap rolled around all I really wanted to do was eat breakfast and watch a show or relax after having chased her around.
This morning I woke up and just started cleaning and made to do lists and let Kaela play around like she would have done otherwise and took moments to play and laugh with her. That's when I realized..... An object (me a mother) in motion (waking up and starting to do wife and personal things) stays in motion (I don't have any problems getting too exhausted to get a good amount of things done.)
This really sounds like it might be oh so common sense, but it was my "ah-ha" moment so don't make fun! Plus, if I write it down it will help me next time I get the "need-proof-that-I-am-progressing- mothering-blues"
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